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When I was in school I never had many friends and nobody really knew me, going to school was just an obligation I had to fulfil I was not fond of studies at all. 8 years of school I saw many girls but I never fell in love with anyone. There were boy’s around me who were in relationships I would ask them how matured are you ?do you even know the meaning of love? I used to think everybody is silly but then during my last 2 years I met a girl I don’t know if was destined or it was an accident. I was trying to hit one of my friends with a chalk and it accidentally hit her and it almost hit her in the right eye the area turned red i was sure she would slap me or complain to the principal but no!!she came to me I said I’m very sorry and she made sure that guilt that I had goes away she just told me to smile and forget whatever happened. I told her I was trying to hit my friend but i accidentally hit you she just told me it’s okay I believe you. The way she spoke it still feels like it just happened 5 minutes ago the mannerisms the voice the way she was looking at me my God she was just an Angel..I had never seen a girl in this world who was that beautiful God!!everything about her was like a dream be it her face, her eyes, her aura,her hair.. I don’t know when and how I fell in love with her Now it was our last year of school that’s the 10th year 😕I used to sit behind her so in some time we became friends. We exchanged numbers started messaging this was before WhatsApp i mean like text messages late night chats..Then my friends knew how much I was crazy about her so they forced me to propose her and foolishly I did 😕she rejected me 😔I went into serious depression like really why did she reject me? I don’t drink I don’t smoke what’s wrong with me somehow I gave my exams and I passed and school was over. Then suddenly after 3 years I saw her walking on the road while I was in a bus my God I still remember how happy I was to see her that day she didn’t see me but I was so energetic so nice to everybody around me. Everyone wondered why I was so happy? To be honest she makes me feel like I’m the strongest person In this world I can achieve anything I can defeat anyone...But then in reality she was in a committed relationship with a boy who was older than her I was like this is not serious common they are going to break up at some point but no..just to see her beautiful face again I started to find out where she stays so that I could just see her once again..that would make my day or even my life just “once”but I never got to see or talk to her again she’s just not interested in me. My friends told me to forget her but it’s not that easy I don’t know why all these years she has been coming in my dreams even when I don’t think of her she’s just there!!! like in my subconscious mind. I pray to God to let me forget her like i just never met her or these events never took place. I’m really a lonely guy who wants nothing but companionship I respect women I’m a virgin I don’t know how to perform sex I’ve never had sex I look at girls in a very respectful manner people say all rich dudes get beautiful girls okay must be true I’m decently rich but that’s got me nothing. No girl looks at me!!forget about having a conversation they just ignore and walk away..well girls just don’t appear from the sky I have been told !! I was advised to use a dating app. I was on at least 10 dating apps and 2 marriages making apps for 6 months like imagine I tried so hard to get a girl...but no girl approached me back. I just need that one girl in my life...I’ll forever stay loyal to her but.....Now I feel my existence is worthless i don’t know why I’m still alive why I’m breathing..? I don’t celebrate any festivals also I have stopped cutting my birthday cake I’m not celebrating my birthdays it’s been like 4 years now every year I come up with some excuse to not celebrate because my parents are not aware of how tired I am of living. Well God bless everyone 😀what I know is that I’m really a cursed soul so I’m just waiting for death now.Even if I die there’s no one who will shed a tear even my parents they’ll forget me in like 2 days after I’m cremated. I have no purpose to live but I do have a carrier but no idea for whom I’m studying for whom I’ll earn and on whom I’ll spent?? Since the day I was born I saw nothing but sadness now I’m completely damaged I hope I leave this world soon.. no one can understand my agony and pain I’m so lonely and abandoned that’s why now I’ve detached myself from the world